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UnTraceable

 

Untraceable !

 

Today i watched a Movie Untraceable . the movie was Depicting the story of a boy whose father killed himself and some TV channel captured the entire incident of his father anhilating himself and showed it on TV , their was only one TV channel that showed that fascinating, entertaining, enticing happening . Their was one TV Reporter who captured that incident…

That TV channel and Reporter made FORTUNES after that incident by making a MOCKERY of his Death . His son went into trauma, recuperates himself after 9 months and in reprisal kills that Reporter in a way that was rather very INtelligent than being ferocious & wolfish ( the poilice in that movie labeled him Piece of shit ! ) . according to me.

He streamed the entire killing episode on the INTERNET in a way that the time in which the people die was inversely proportional to the number of people viewing it.

if more people viewed the website than the person will die sooner. and the people inspite of knowing it watched it ! and with each new killing the viewership increased.

 

 .. true that was only in the movie. but i just realised that this thing happens with us also .. IN INDIA !

 

If you can recall that Prince episode and after that the somany others u will see that the people watched it more than they would watch an INDIA PAKISTAN cricket match. out of all those lil kids who fell into that Death-Hole ! one or two did die .. and we all watched it ? why ? i opine that th reason we watched had to do less with we being concerned with that boy’s death and was more about the excitement, the punch, the Win-Lose situation.And t was all basically Very Entertaining for us ! the way it was showed , the way we saw it ! TRP’s of all News channels showing it Touched Sky !!!

 

Conclusion : We human are Hungry .. For Entertainment .. Fun .. and the Reason why those TV channels show images/footage of people Dieng, suffering, in pain , on the verge of dieng and portray misery of some one in that unthinkably miserable way ..depict a criminal in that .. Devilish way .. take control of our minds .. develop a opinion in us that, the person being shown is Cruel .. not human .. and we feel an urger to kill him .. is actually a way these TV channels and Reporers have chosen to make MONEY !  if u remember that sansani on ajjtak DEKHIYE IS VAISHI DARINDE KO .. MASOOM KA BALATKAAR KARNE WALA … God only knows if the victim was masoom or not .. or actualy that person was that evil .. tho the act being reffred to here is Immoral.( & i like DIane Lane .. though she is very OLD but She actually is one of the Most Beautiful Women in Hollywood .. but i hated Her Role in Unfaithful )

 

And i have actualized that ..whatever we SEE, READ or LISTEN TO .. we should always try to Diverge from the Authors Opinion and think Differently.. we might be wrong .. but it helps in CAT Preparation where you need Strong LOGIC and CRITICAL Reasoning .

 

You

the morning’s brightness
the night’s darkness
reminds me of you

 

the Hot afternoon
the pleasant evening
reminds me of you

 

the harsh noises
the pleasant music
yes
it all reminds me of you

 

the time spent
the things undone
tat i repent
remind me of you

a stroll in the park
a hasty jog
reminds me of you 
 
the colour black
reminds me of you

 

the morning tea
reminds me of you

 

the good night wish
reminds me of you

My very existence

reminds me of you !

Kabhi bekasi ne mara ..

Yeh gazal hai na geet ha koi

Yeh mere dard ki kahani hai

Mere sine mein sirf sholey hain

Meri ankhon mein sirf paani hai

 

Kabhi bekasi ne mara

Kabhi bekasi ne mara

Oh . .

kabhi bebasi ne mara

 

Gila maut se nahin hai

Gila maut se nahin hai

Mujhe zindagi ne mara

 

Mukadar pe kuch zor chalta nahin

Woh mausam hai yeh jo badalta nahin

 

Kahin thi yeh badnasibi

Kahin thi meri gareebi

 

Kis kis ka naam loon main

Mujhe har kisi ne mara

 

Gila Maut se nahin hai

Gila maut se nahin hai

Mujhe zindai ne mara

Lyrics : old hindi song !

 

I want U & Ur Beautiful Soul !!

I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I’d be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you’ll see the heart in me

I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I’ll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don’t wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah.

 

lyrics !!!!

Ankh bekadraan naal laayi . . Luk Luk Rona pai GAya . .

 

yaar mile lajpal mile ..  tad yaari laavaan chas hai

kaafir hai . . jihra laa ke yaari , pichon akhe meri bas hai …

 

when we meet our friend , the protector of our honour/ it is a great thing to become friends with him/

/he who once a close friend says/ i have head enough is a heathen/if you sacrifice yourself you meet the friend

 

Je sir ditiyaan . . yaar mile .. fir sir devan ki kas hai

sir devan te wafa na mangi , eho pir farid da das hai . .

sacrifice yourself and do not demand fidelity/so says pir farid/ 

 

cheti aaun da wada kar ke , bhul gayo  yaar tareekan

enna pyaar wada ke pehlon , hun ishq nu laiyna deeka

kujh taane dite sakhiyan ne kujh maare bol shareekan

sawan rutaan kayin lang gaiyna , asaan rakhiyna yaar udeekan

my friend has promised to come quickly/but he forgot the dates/

/he did so much to build up my love/and now he makes me wait/my friends make fun of me /my companions speak ill of me/

/so many monsoons have come and gone /and im still waiting for my friend/

 

Ankh bekadraan naal laayi ..  Luk Luk Rona Pai gaya . .

Ankh bekadraan naal laayi ..  Luk Luk Rona Pai gaya . .

Ankh bekadraan naal laayi ..  Luk Luk Rona Pai gaya . .

Ankh bekadraan naal laayi ..  Luk Luk Rona Pai gaya . .

i fell in love with a heartless man and wa forced to cweep in secret

 

Maahi kar gaya wada awaan da . .  Na app ayeya na paigam ayeya

aisa rog laga meri jindari nu .. na maut ayii . . na araam ayeya ..

my beloved had promise me to come /he has not , nor has he sent a word /my life has been crushed to sucha great affliction/

both death and sleep have forsaken me/

 

ankh bekadran naal laayi . .  luk luk rona pai gaya . .

i fell in love with a heartless man and wa forced to cweep in secret

 

sukh chain te neend gavayi . .luk luk rona pai gaya

sukhri chad ke ho gaya raahi ..  waah  sajna teri bewafai . .

nain mila ke kar gaya ke rogi .. nain mila ke kar gaya rogi ..

lad gaya dil jaani de ke dard ghanera

ajj sajna de vajoon soona chaar chufera

reh gayi  jindari ho gaya  jogi 

likhi lekhan vich rab ne judai .. luk luk rona pai gaya

 

happiness ,peace and sleep deserted me/and i was forced to weep in secret/

/having broken the ties , he departed /Oh my friend how uncaring you are ?

/he looked into my eyes and then broke my heart/he left the darlign of my heart /

/hurting me so very deeply/without my friend now all is barren /

he looked into my eyes and broke my heart / i no longer wish to live /

the lord took down teh seperation in my register/ and i was forced to weep in secret/

all i have left is the lamentation of a broken heart / i regret having loved him

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 – Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan

 

blah . blah .. and some mre blah .. :D

 Hey . . 

  .  me gonna post another  shit-bit of mine . 😛

So wassup ?? .  me njoying hlidays .. yeah njoying .   wen  my college was goin on how I wanted these hols  . and now I m bored to death , , bloody have no work to do . .

All my frenz ( most of them ) gone or training .. and me rotting in hell . . don’t know why m I so dumb. . 

  Yeah .. have started learning STAAD PRO . . a civil software .  structural analysis and design .. , wat else will me do …. Noffin .  

 Have joined another organization .. We volunteer .. but me feeling kinda bored wid all this stuff . now it has become  a kind of formality .. the enthu , the spirit I had wen I initially joined thses orgs . . isn’t there anymore . . 

    Have started walking ..  everyday in eve I go for walk in the park near my home for an hour or  so ..  its kinda good activity  ..  and how can I forget the view . . 😀 .  . its really very funny to see all those chubby chubby fat fat gals .. walking so fast .. wid so much determination to reduce weight .  and then to see them doing bending exercises . .  lol

 And then u see guys and gal in the park dating . . 😀  I normally take a somebody wid me .. sumtimes I take my frnd gautam who lives nearby .. and when he is tired ..  I take my sis’s W700i walkman  fone .. 😀 . . man it rocks . . I also want a walkman phone .. L . . shouldn’t have  drowned my fone in goa .. sniff snob .  L L ..  

   And wat else . yeah . . me wana go some where ..  living here is damn very borng .. I kinda feel the saturation in my mind . .  I do nothing ..  

Me thinkng of making my website . .  first have learn dreamweaver ,.. strated learningit on my own . but then . . .. left it in between .. 

And fuck my PC is also not working . and this pentium M lappy sux ..

  . wat else .. um um .. ummm .  yeah I got my result ..  this time I got 7.4 sgpa ..  so now my cgpa hs come down from 7.8 to 7.7 . damn I wanted more. .

My have just two more sems to  improve it ..  and its not easy to do so . .

1^st sem I got 7.7 , then  2^nd sem I got 7.6 , in3rd I got 8.2 . and now 7.4 . .  but me happy .. tho I didn’t get good marks in other subjects .. but one subject which troubled all the students I got an A in it..  😀 . . in physics I got A . .  got  B in Reiforced concrete design , and C in  Structures mechanics , B in  probably and stats ..  and D in physics lab , C in department lab ..  L L and yeah ..  once again . I got  X ( tat is . . unsatisfactory ) in physical eduation   . well tat was obvious as I attended only 2-3 classes ..  in all .. 😀 . .

Hate phy ed . run like mad .  lol ..

 Chalo .. tat will be all  ..   and yeah one thing more , , the new FM rocks .>!!!!..  two new channels 92.7 , and 94.3 in chd are damn good . . me love music ..  😀

 

Take Care . .

God Bless All . !!

mathematical Description of life

 

 

 After so many years o study of mathemaics and life . .   followed  by exhaustive experiments and observations ..

i have come up wid a mathematical description of life . .

 

life is a operator that is aplied to man . .  operator is a fucntion .. which when operated on a number , quantity does the desired operation ..

 

like we can have square operator (SQP) whihc whne aplied will square the quantity

 sqp2 = 4 sqp4 = 16 sqp(x) = x^2  and so on .

and operand is the quantity being operated . .

so in life .. the operator is the life operator nd the operand is man . .

 now we have got the characteristic of life  and also the operand . .  now the problem that was left to me was to find out  what that operator is . .

after a few observations ..  and then plotting these observations on a semi log graph . . i found out that life operaotos is a series . .  infinite series . . 

then it was to find that series ..  so  i used curve plotting for that and the functions which fitted the best was a geometric series ..

that if ife operator is of type ..  Life operator =  x + x^2 + x^3 + x^4 + x^5 . . . . . and so on ..

( x^2 = x*x , x^3 = x*x*x . .  and so on .. )

 

now what i had to find was  wat is that X . .

and that x is .. . . x= fuck U …

this impplies . . 

life = life-operator( MAN )

life = { (fuckU) + (fuckU)^2 + (fuckU)^3 + (fuckU)^4 + (fuckU)^5 . . . . . . .  } (MAN)

 

so as we proceed along this series ..  man is  fucked harder and harder . . .

 . . this reminds me of a very old song   by beatles . .  ( to whihc i have done a lil modification )

 

Fuck fuck me do .. .

u know i ll fuck you .. 

so please please please .. 

 fuck me doooo ..  . OO .. ooooo .. OOO ..

fuck me do .. . 

Ooo ..  OOOo ..

fuck me DO . . .. !!!! ..  lol ..

 

 

 

“thathi vao na lagai , par bharam sharnai”

Tathi vao na lagai , par bharam sharnai

     – meaning ..  those who come into gods  abode are saved by him from all ills and sufferings

 

I was may be in 6th or 7th  at that time when Jaundice hit me ,liver malfunction ..  caused by unhygenic water  etc  . . can be  deadly, high fever , no medicine can be given coz the liver gets week and any medicine can damage it ..  no spicy food . .  no heavy milk products . . the only medicine for this disease is "muli ka juice" , "gane ka juice"  and LIV-52 an ayurvedic medicine ..

        when it stuck me i was in bed for 25 days .. fever as high as 105 , 107 and their was a time when i was on the verge of being  hospitalised as 105 degree fever can be fatal . i remember that day i was lying on the bed mom sitting on the bed crying , papa walking in the room all tense . .  my sis applying cold water cloth on my head and my DADAJI sitting on a chair by my side and hyming "tathi vao na lagai , par bharam sharnai .. jogirdh hamare ram ka , dukh lage na bhai .. "   whihc means something like  i have come to you oh lord ..  so save me and kill all my illnesses and sufferings . 

         My dadaji is not with me anymore but when ever i feel lonely , scolded by my parents , heart fucked , crying   ..  tat day coms to mah mind  and the fact tat my grandpa loved me so much  and how alone im wid out him. How he used t save me from my fathers wrath and how i miss him . 

     A tear just abour to roll down my eyes …  dont know why it stopped in between , but i miss him .. m really sorry for acting the way i did when you were aliv  and thankyou for all ur lov , care , affection , hugs , kisses whchi never deserved whch i no longer get , which i miss like hell ..

    When he was in the hospital .. in his last days ..  i went there and he was not saying anthing .. was very week but the moment he saw me  . he said "dimpy" (my nick name ). .  and held my hand for a few minutes . And when he died , during the bhog and all other ceremonies not a single tear rolled down my eyes .. 

         I cry now coz i miss him , his love and affection which i failed to realize when he was alive ..

 

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 The VEngeance , the scars

 my heart is torn

the hypocritical world

the insensitive love

the longing for death

all the blood that has been shed

& before i take my last breath

MAY GOD FUCK YOU ALL !!!

aIdS AwaRenESS SloGanS(sLow-gUns)

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